Better That We Break

Sooooo. My Love Life. Sucks. Major. Posterior.

Number One: Dream Guy
There's This Guy. && I Love Him. SOOOO Much. Im finally admitting that to myself. But he doesnt realize the extent that I actually care about him. We're in this random stage. Where he says. We Jus "Chillin" Which is nothin but friends with benefits sorta. We jus acknowledge the fact that we have feelings for each other. But as far as he is concerned. there is NO type of slight commitment. We can have our sides. And it's whatever. But i think he was jus okay with this. Because for a time. I didnt have any. But it's a BRAND NEW day. Im gettin my game back. But this still isnt gonna make me completely happy. I wanna let it go. But I kno im not gonna be able to handle just being friends. He got me wide open and dont even realize it. He claims he cares. But I dont think he does as much as I do.

Number Two: Side Guy
We were jus fuck buddies. I kno it sounds wrong. But that's all it was supposed to be. nothing more. But dummy me. has caught feelings. =\
now im stuck. cause i told him. but i think he kinda brushed it off. and turned it into a kinda joke. but im so serious. and i dont wanna be like LOOK FOOL. at the same time. i have stopped fckn him. cause i thought me nd number one was gon be on sum serious shidd. but dats dead. but in that time. I have realized dat i do actually like him. and this is more than a physical thing for me now. and i cant continue anymore. soooooooooo. im so stuck with that.

Number Three: Distant Guy
this guy. i like SOOOOOOSOSOSOSOSOSO much. but i NEVER see him. like. last time i say him. was may. and we wanna be together. But that factor can be very taxing on a relationship. I really wuldnt mind bein stamped by shawty tho. he jus makes me smile. every time we talk. when his name comes across my phone. cant help but get excited. he's like my other half. but somehow i feel. as we're never gonna come together.

sooo.
that's three guys i like.
and im not gonna get.
which leaves me stuck. lonely. && pitiful.

all i have is my music to keep me comfy.
always got the besties too.
but sumtimes. they can hurt more than help.