I Should Have A Show On The N.

I really believe I should. Because the most random moments happen to me.
And their always so overly dramatized. That the shuld be televised.
heyyy. that rhymed! but anyway.
my yesterday morning.
WAS CRAZY!

so im gettin a ride. from my pumpkin. =]
and my dad pulls up. scratch that. SWERVS up. in the middle of the street.
jumps out the car lookin extra crazy. and jus starts yellin.
he looks at me nd goes. what are you doing.
i reply. what does it look like. im goin to school.
then he proceeds. to open my pumpkins car door. and ask 97 questions.
he ends that convo by threatening him. and telling him to never pick me up again.
slams the door. walks off. and tells me to get into his truck.

so im jus shocked nd like wtf. cuz i cant believe this is actually happening.
i get in the car. and get THE SPEECH OF LIFE!
he's all. what's gonna happen if you get hurt. and BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i was sooooooo effin blownnn.

then. i get to first period. LATE.
we hafta go to the cafeteria to present our projects.
and this guy i used to talk to. who got mad at me. cuz i caught him in sum lies.
picks that morning. of all mornings. to decided he wants to pick with me!
so he pissed me off more. cuz he's acting like he hadnt been ignoring me for the past two weeks.

to top it off.
i didnt even get to cheer at our last game of the season.
which makes me sooo sad. cuz im gonna miss the squad. well. some of the squad.
& all the fun we had. I LOVE YOU GUYSSSSSS =]

soooo yeahh.
then. i jus had the shitties saturday.
did absolutely nothing. but clean. and text. =\
my pumpkin keeps goin m.i.a every couple of hours.
so. im givin up on him for the night.

hoping for a better sunday.
really wanna go to church.
seeing as i havent been in like 2 months.

i have yet to find a prom dress. or a date for that matter.
so maybe. i jus wont go. that's a thought.
orrr i juss need to hop on that.
and find both.
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Life As I Know It

Soooooo. The past 3-4 months. My life. has been on a roller coaster. The one guy that I can say I truly love. jus been takin me thru. We been havin our ups nd downs. And we always end up choosing other people over each other. But in the end. We both always come back. Lately. he's been doing most of the leaving and the last time. it hurt me so bad. like. I hit ROCK BOTTOM. and I told myself I was neva gon let anotha guy have a hold on me like dat. And me nd him would never have that same relationship again. But against my rant, when he broke up widd his girl. and I instantly realized how much I missed him. Then he says he feels the same. All those words went out the window. And I took him back. Idk why. But everytime it happens. I jus hope it'll be different. nd I guess that's why I keep goin back. even tho we're not official or anything. im jus happy dat im back nd his life. nd I kno nobody else has him.

am I so wrong for that?